When my husband and I decided to get a second dog, I panicked. I felt our house was too small for two dogs. I was sure they wouldn’t have a good life unless we found a bigger place.
I decided to pray, knowing I could “manifest” a larger house. “We’ll all be happier once we move,” I said.
Several months later, we hadn’t moved; but I had a revelation in our tiny bathroom.
I went in there. The two dogs and the cat crowded in after me. (If you have animals you may know they often “help” in the bathroom by visiting, staring, and barking).
I thought, “This is ironic. I prayed for a bigger house and now I’m crammed into the tiniest room with the herd milling at my feet, the exact opposite of my prayer.
Was my prayer a dud? Am I an inadequate pray-er?”…
We often look to the world of conditions for evidence of answered prayer. If external conditions don’t change, we start to distrust and think we’re having a prayer-fail.
While it’s true that outer conditions sometimes change through prayer, often the more important change is internal.
We release the strident need to change the world and allow ourselves to be changed instead. We find unconditional good – goodness independent of external conditions.
That morning in my tiny bathroom, I smiled as I found unconditional good.
Even if we lived in the Taj Mahal, the dogs and cat would continue to sit on me, lean on me, and visit me in the bathroom. I wouldn’t want it any other way. God’s spaciousness has nothing to do with square footage and everything to do with a heart crowded by insistent love.
I try to remember to return to the memory of this when I am frustrated by seemingly unanswered prayer. Time and time again I find that unanswered prayer is love calling me deeper.
Are you experiencing an unanswered prayer? Could it be that a deeper Love wants to happen?